I feel really sad. Its a strange sadness, I'm not crying, I just feel sad. I feel physically empty, and I think that is what is making me sad. I also feel strangely selfish for making this post.
I feel like I can't talk because what people hear isn't what I am saying, and this has been troubling me a lot.
I'm so tired of work. I'm so tired of people. I'm so tired of everything that is going wrong in my life now. I must be a horrible person because lately when I've seen people happy, it just makes my sadness heavier. This must make me an extremely selfish person, and in thinking this, it just makes my sadness even heavier.
I really don't understand how sadness can be both empty and heavy. I just miss feeling happy.
I've concluded that I am the loneliest loner who hates being alone. I really need to talk to someone. But I know that when someone brings it up, or I try to bring it up, I'll just pretend that nothing is wrong and go through the days like I have been.ugh.whatswrongwithme?
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so, i finally went to a nude beach today and i think we would both enjoy our times fully if we went when we're back in san diego. maybe once the clothing is shed, you can shed some of these unsaid feelings as well. at least i hope so.
love,
amy
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